Well folks here we are! My 40th day since my spiritual surgery. That means that I can now exercise (yoga!) have body work (massage!) make love (Bob!) They were no nos because they get in the way of the entities healing energy. I am now officially done with the post-op period. Still no alcohol, weed, pork or chili peppers because I am on the herbs and will be for a few more weeks.
I thought I would be more excited to resume some of the activities of my previous life. I dreamt of hand standing in my studio, hiking the trails behind my house and yes being with Bob in the biblical sense. But.... This morning I was very tentative in my yoga -- like a beginner not sure of my balance -- feeling every little move and sure I was doing it wrong (hope I don't feel that way tonight!). Couldn't even kick my leg up in handstand -- so humbling! Took a long, brisk walk today and felt like I was carrying 2 pianos on each leg every time I took a step. Six weeks without physical activity! News flash: I didn't miss it as much as I thought I did. Here's what I did miss: being in nature and fresh air and being connected to my yoga community of the coolest friends and students a girl can have. I now realize I had an exercise intervention! I do love movement and my daily walk (and yoga practice) is really just meditation in motion if done with awareness: 4 steps to each inhalation, 4 steps to each exhalation. It's all about MEDITATION.
The 40 day period is a symbolic period of honoring your commitment to consciousness as well as a wonderful excuse to do nothing which we rarely let ourselves do. It's really hard to do nothing! But that's where the quiet is. That's where the stillness is. That's where the information is.
Wish me luck tonight -- but I heard it's like riding a bike or swimming -- once you learn you never forget.
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