Some serious thoughts

On a light note: acai and chocolate smoothie!

A lot of u have been asking me if I feel different. Taking stock after my first week I have to say I do, but mostly I don't.
Most of u know how high energy I am and how fast I walk. In Bedford, if u can't keep up with me on my walk then don't bother. I am walking soooo slowly down here. Just one foot in front of the other. Actually ambling my way down the main drag saying hola to all the shopkeepers (by first name of course). Really taking it slow, partly because I don't have anywhere to go but also because I feel like my whole being has slowed down. Oh I'm still playing online scrabble with Shelley (I asked the entities to kick her ass) but in general from all the meditation I am really centered and calm.

I haven't been sleeping well which could be due to menopause or the fact that its so hit! I suspect the real reason is that I'm afraid to close my eyes. Had a great one on one with Heather last night. She says that when we r sleeping the entities r working on us -- this clearly scares the crap out of me! When she asked me how long it's been since I slept I said 51 years. Which leads me to my next thought:

Last week when we asked the entity for our healing I said that I hand it over to them to heal me for my greater good. Well now I feel I need to take ownership of my healing and ask for help with fear: fear of being alone, of the dark, of taking care of myself, of new situations, for the well being of my children etc. So that's where I sit now.

As I talk with my fellow travelers I hear them say they see orbs of light, feel vibrating energies, feel themselves being "worked on.". I don't feel any of that! Am I so shallow? It's not like I'm waiting for a bolt of lightning but I would like to feel something.

I will say that I do feel the unconditional love and acceptance. It doesnt matter what you look like, what u wear, who u know, what ur social or economical background may be. You get beyond the masks and the costumes and really see people. Granted we r all like-minded people here but even with strangers you can smile and feel safe and unjudged. Some of you may know of Michael Newton's books about life between life or where our souls go when we r not incarnate. We r all just light/energy. I would say that being here is the closest thing to that on earth. Enough rambling. Have a great day! Xxoooo